Do you have a relationship with someone because you like their family? Or you feel sorry for them? Or they just don’t give up? Would you want to be with someone knowing you would never get to sleep?
I think on some level if it doesn’t work it just doesn’t work. No matter if you are going to get something out of the relationship, something is now what we crave as humans. Or what we really need.
It is not my desire to be with someone who is good but can’t make me happy on other levels. Or they seem to have so many issues that they over ride the quality of life you could have.
Yes, I write in code and thoughts….. Part of it is where do you start? What part of the story do you start with? Do you start with the moment in you find yourself in and just building from that point? Do you start at the beginning? But then were does the beginning really start? What about the end? Well that is great if you know what or when the end is.
So let’s just start where we are now. I wonder how do I get myself into situations like this? Ok, I do know…… I get that desperate feeling. That fear of being alone. And as I sit in the car home sick and wondering how long this drive will take, I kick myself.
I am happy at home and I am happy alone. So why do I try to even have a relationship?
Barfing garden Gnomes 